Me and Julian
26 December 2007
boo hiss
Well, The Beautiful People has been cancelled.
Oh fucking-hell!
This is the fourth show this year alone that has dissipated for me.
I'm starting to wonder if its some sort of sign that I shouldn't be acting anymore. :(
Bleeg!
This sucks ass.
And I feel awful for Phil. He did everything he possibly could to keep the show going. I guess the fates have other plans right now.
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One wonderful thing is the arrival of my headshots from the printers. They are exquisite! I'm still in awe of them; I can barely believe they are mine.
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Oh fucking-hell!
This is the fourth show this year alone that has dissipated for me.
I'm starting to wonder if its some sort of sign that I shouldn't be acting anymore. :(
Bleeg!
This sucks ass.
And I feel awful for Phil. He did everything he possibly could to keep the show going. I guess the fates have other plans right now.
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One wonderful thing is the arrival of my headshots from the printers. They are exquisite! I'm still in awe of them; I can barely believe they are mine.
Go here for any and all printing needs: Spotlight Printing
Beautiful work, excellent prices, I highly recommend them!
25 December 2007
20 December 2007
Shooting of the Head
I had headshots taken this past August that I'm finally getting printed.
Never mind that my hair is now longer and red!
This is the proof they sent me. Its exactly what I wanted!
I special requested the black borders. I'm so happy with them!
Never mind that my hair is now longer and red!
This is the proof they sent me. Its exactly what I wanted!
I special requested the black borders. I'm so happy with them!
19 December 2007
caffeinated cat
Daisy had a nip of my Dr. Pepper last night when I wasn't looking and was awake until 4am!
These pics were taken today. I love my kotka.
17 December 2007
Am I actually feeling a positive emotion?!
I've been excited since yesterday. I was looking forward to the read thru (good times) and I suppose that excitement and energy carried into today.
Sometimes I forget how much I love acting.
I got excited about it all over again, like when I first started 10 years ago.
Perhaps I needed to be reminded of the joy it brings me. :D
I got excited about it all over again, like when I first started 10 years ago.
Perhaps I needed to be reminded of the joy it brings me. :D
16 December 2007
100 year old pasta
I just got back from the first read-through of The Beautiful People.
It was awesome! This is a very sweet Saroyan piece that we are doing as part of Saroyan's Centennial.
I have to say, I'm especially pleased by all the references in the script about my character's beauty. Its rare that I get to play the pretty girl. :D
AND- I get to work with Carolyn Robertson again. I want to eat her liver!!!
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I have some sort of cold. I've been coughing (with blood-taste), sniffling, all that suck-jazz. I tend to be paranoid about colds & flu since I had the pneumonia for 5 months in 03-04. The codeine is a happiness, though!
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I'm hungry for cheese ravioli.
It was awesome! This is a very sweet Saroyan piece that we are doing as part of Saroyan's Centennial.
I have to say, I'm especially pleased by all the references in the script about my character's beauty. Its rare that I get to play the pretty girl. :D
AND- I get to work with Carolyn Robertson again. I want to eat her liver!!!
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I have some sort of cold. I've been coughing (with blood-taste), sniffling, all that suck-jazz. I tend to be paranoid about colds & flu since I had the pneumonia for 5 months in 03-04. The codeine is a happiness, though!
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I'm hungry for cheese ravioli.
14 December 2007
Dr. Codeine
Yay!
My great friend Codeine has made a housecall!
We have a temptestuous relationship but I need him right now.
Oh the lovely lighter head for my heavy heart!
<--- orange on codeine
My great friend Codeine has made a housecall!
We have a temptestuous relationship but I need him right now.
Oh the lovely lighter head for my heavy heart!
<--- orange on codeine
12 December 2007
11 December 2007
10 December 2007
agnes dei
I've learned I'm playing Agnes Webster in The Beautiful People.
Excitement! Of course, she's only 17, while I'm ... older. o.0
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I'm not writing anymore. At this point I have little confidence in myself and recent events haven't helped that situation.
I feel stupid.
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I dreamed of Michael. I hate my brain sometimes. It wasn't even a good dream.
I wish for impossible things.
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My heart hurts.
Excitement! Of course, she's only 17, while I'm ... older. o.0
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I'm not writing anymore. At this point I have little confidence in myself and recent events haven't helped that situation.
I feel stupid.
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I dreamed of Michael. I hate my brain sometimes. It wasn't even a good dream.
I wish for impossible things.
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My heart hurts.
09 December 2007
Mask
I still don't know.
I still feel like giving up.
But I went to Sephora today and bought some lovely new treats! Buxom Lip Plumping Gloss! Gold Foil Eyeshadow! Bare Escentuals Blush Duo! Gold Glittery Butterfly Mascara!
That's something, right? I'm a great-looking failure.
I still feel like giving up.
But I went to Sephora today and bought some lovely new treats! Buxom Lip Plumping Gloss! Gold Foil Eyeshadow! Bare Escentuals Blush Duo! Gold Glittery Butterfly Mascara!
That's something, right? I'm a great-looking failure.
08 December 2007
05 December 2007
03 December 2007
Wisdom Fangs
I've been contemplating the possibility that our wisdom teeth at one time contained venom.
I was in bed last night thinking about venom and how unfair it is that humans don't have any. Then I thought of vestigial tails and how unfair it is that we no longer have real tails. Which of course led me to the idea that perhaps our wisdom teeth back in the day were actually venomous fangs and what we now know as "wisdom teeth" are vestigial in that sense. How cool would that be?
I was in bed last night thinking about venom and how unfair it is that humans don't have any. Then I thought of vestigial tails and how unfair it is that we no longer have real tails. Which of course led me to the idea that perhaps our wisdom teeth back in the day were actually venomous fangs and what we now know as "wisdom teeth" are vestigial in that sense. How cool would that be?
01 December 2007
The Beautiful Callbacks
I've been cast in Aithon Theatre Company's January production of The Beautiful People!
I'm not sure whether I'm playing Agnes or Harmony yet, I just know I'm in it. Yay! Good times (I hope) ahead.
I'm not sure whether I'm playing Agnes or Harmony yet, I just know I'm in it. Yay! Good times (I hope) ahead.
29 November 2007
Feverdream
Last night I finally took a perfect circle out of my cd player in my bedroom. I put Iron & Wine on instead, for something different.
I was still awake after reading and wrangling Daisy when the song "Feverdream" came on, and I was immediately stricken with the pain of nostalgia. In an instant, I was taken back to a time, several years ago, when things were very different from now. I remembered the way I felt back then, who my boyfriend was, who my friends and "friends" were, where I was in life. In truth, I was at the height of popularity. And I never realized just how awful it felt until I heard that song and it all came flooding too fast into my heart to be contained. How lonely being the "It" girl can be. The stab of love lost, of jealousy's arrows piercing my back.
It's one of my favorite songs on the disc, still.
I'm not that naive girl anymore.
I was still awake after reading and wrangling Daisy when the song "Feverdream" came on, and I was immediately stricken with the pain of nostalgia. In an instant, I was taken back to a time, several years ago, when things were very different from now. I remembered the way I felt back then, who my boyfriend was, who my friends and "friends" were, where I was in life. In truth, I was at the height of popularity. And I never realized just how awful it felt until I heard that song and it all came flooding too fast into my heart to be contained. How lonely being the "It" girl can be. The stab of love lost, of jealousy's arrows piercing my back.
It's one of my favorite songs on the disc, still.
I'm not that naive girl anymore.
28 November 2007
Sense and Sensibility
I had a Marianne Dashwood look going on today:
Good times!
I'm reading/analysing 2 scripts right now.
I also found out the short film I did last December is nearly finished!
Good times!
I'm reading/analysing 2 scripts right now.
I also found out the short film I did last December is nearly finished!
25 November 2007
Schmool
I registered for the spring semester.
The damage:
~ Phil 1 Intro to Philosophy (retaking to get rid of the nasty F)
~ IS 12 Computer Literacy (online, class in my underwear!)
I hope I actually make it this time. Talons crossed!
I've lost some weight, so now my arms look slightly less T-Rex than before. This is a plus.
I received what feels like the millionth rejection letter this morning. This is a minus.
:/ No poem today. Apparently, I suck.
The damage:
~ Phil 1 Intro to Philosophy (retaking to get rid of the nasty F)
~ IS 12 Computer Literacy (online, class in my underwear!)
I hope I actually make it this time. Talons crossed!
I've lost some weight, so now my arms look slightly less T-Rex than before. This is a plus.
I received what feels like the millionth rejection letter this morning. This is a minus.
:/ No poem today. Apparently, I suck.
22 November 2007
18 November 2007
17 November 2007
15 November 2007
bites
My car was broken into. The fucknut thieves ripped out my front panel, took my stereo (which was a present from my mom & aunt), stole my pretty black satin asian print cd holder and left my trunk ajar so my battery is now dead. *screams*
I seriously doubt the ghettotrash that took my music will enjoy Dylan, KOC, radiohead and Leonard Cohen! Fucking-hell!
At least Stella is still parked in the lot. She's been violated but she's out there.
I'm also missing Michael.
I got another rejection letter.
The show I was fired from opens tomorrow, to much blowhard fanfare that I'd like to cease and desist.
Daisy kept me up most of the night biting me. She's teething right now and thinks she can act feral. She's nibbling on me right now!
My apartment management is "inspecting" apts for smoke alarms and a/c crapola. Daisy isn't allowed here, so she has to hide in my room until they come and go.
I'm tired of being bitten by all these things.
I seriously doubt the ghettotrash that took my music will enjoy Dylan, KOC, radiohead and Leonard Cohen! Fucking-hell!
At least Stella is still parked in the lot. She's been violated but she's out there.
I'm also missing Michael.
I got another rejection letter.
The show I was fired from opens tomorrow, to much blowhard fanfare that I'd like to cease and desist.
Daisy kept me up most of the night biting me. She's teething right now and thinks she can act feral. She's nibbling on me right now!
My apartment management is "inspecting" apts for smoke alarms and a/c crapola. Daisy isn't allowed here, so she has to hide in my room until they come and go.
I'm tired of being bitten by all these things.
14 November 2007
13 November 2007
10 November 2007
Scarlet Shimmer
I'll be debuting (redoing?) my new haircolor soon. It's a red-brown. I've had red hair several times in my life before and have always loved it. The last time it was bright-ass red (called Scarlet Shimmer) I had to dye it back to dark for The Women. I let it grow out black after that. But I've been pining for my red lately so I'm excited about that and will post pictures as soon as the deed is done. :D
Here are pics from the last red I had in 2005:
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Here are pics from the last red I had in 2005:
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I finally started writing again the other night.
The past two weeks have been a bit tumultuous and my mind was so full trying to process everything that it was difficult to focus on anything but the crapola.
Hopefully a few decent pieces will come out now.
I also wanted to be in a more rational state instead of just being melodramatic. When I write of my recent experiences and betrayals I want them to be vicious (which contains truth) but not petty (which is just trite). I've written on other subjects as well. Two are about Daisy (and full of my love for her) and others are random hallucinations and culinary alchemy. I'll start posting them soon.
The past two weeks have been a bit tumultuous and my mind was so full trying to process everything that it was difficult to focus on anything but the crapola.
Hopefully a few decent pieces will come out now.
I also wanted to be in a more rational state instead of just being melodramatic. When I write of my recent experiences and betrayals I want them to be vicious (which contains truth) but not petty (which is just trite). I've written on other subjects as well. Two are about Daisy (and full of my love for her) and others are random hallucinations and culinary alchemy. I'll start posting them soon.
After yesterday's migraine I'm feeling sore and a bit grumpy. Hopefully I'll perk up tomorrow, if Daisy doesn't jump on me at 4 am! o.O Kittens are psychobutts!
08 November 2007
postal
Earlier I was out running some errands, when I witnessed a mailtruck running a stop sign.
I think it must be some sort of sign.
Of what, I have no idea.
It was odd, nonetheless.
I think it must be some sort of sign.
Of what, I have no idea.
It was odd, nonetheless.
07 November 2007
02 November 2007
Kotka
Daisycat is home!
I realize I'm biased, but she is superior to other kittens!
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I had a wonderful lunch today with Audra at Red Lobster. Thanks, girl! Your joyful energy is contagious!
01 November 2007
Daisy
I adopted a new 3 month old kitten today! :D 3 lbs 5 oz.
She is all black with green eyes. She is a beautiful baby kotka!
She's being fixed and microchipped, so she won't be home for a couple of days. I bought her a pink carrier to bring her home in after the surgery, and she has a black velvet bed waiting for her.
I'll post pixies as soon as she's happily ensconced at home.
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Quote of the day:
"The people who matter won't mind, and the people who mind? Don't matter."
~ Dr. Seuss
She is all black with green eyes. She is a beautiful baby kotka!
She's being fixed and microchipped, so she won't be home for a couple of days. I bought her a pink carrier to bring her home in after the surgery, and she has a black velvet bed waiting for her.
I'll post pixies as soon as she's happily ensconced at home.
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Quote of the day:
"The people who matter won't mind, and the people who mind? Don't matter."
~ Dr. Seuss
31 October 2007
29 October 2007
Strap-on lunacies
I think I will move forward with my anthology plans... :D
Friends, start writing and/or editing your submission pieces!
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I've been plotting my return to school, strapping on an additional English major (I'm already 6 units from a Theatre degree), and scouring info in the FSU catalog about their MFA in Poetry program. I've always enjoyed college and filling my brain with new goodygoods!
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Quote of the Day:
"To be great is to be misunderstood."
~ Ralph Waldo Emerson
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I've been wrongfully fired from my lead role in Childe Byron. I'm hurt and disappointed in a company that claims openness and honesty yet doesn't respect their own actors. Caveat Emptor: ultimatums, guilt-trips, personal and professional insults, lies lies lies.
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I'm going this Thursday to adopt a new kitty. Fiona is a wild cat; she comes and goes and is basically a lunatic. I need a kitty that wants to stay, lunatic or no. I will post pics of the new kotka!
Friends, start writing and/or editing your submission pieces!
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I've been plotting my return to school, strapping on an additional English major (I'm already 6 units from a Theatre degree), and scouring info in the FSU catalog about their MFA in Poetry program. I've always enjoyed college and filling my brain with new goodygoods!
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Quote of the Day:
"To be great is to be misunderstood."
~ Ralph Waldo Emerson
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I've been wrongfully fired from my lead role in Childe Byron. I'm hurt and disappointed in a company that claims openness and honesty yet doesn't respect their own actors. Caveat Emptor: ultimatums, guilt-trips, personal and professional insults, lies lies lies.
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I'm going this Thursday to adopt a new kitty. Fiona is a wild cat; she comes and goes and is basically a lunatic. I need a kitty that wants to stay, lunatic or no. I will post pics of the new kotka!
