Feverdream

Last night I finally took a perfect circle out of my cd player in my bedroom. I put Iron & Wine on instead, for something different.
I was still awake after reading and wrangling Daisy when the song "Feverdream" came on, and I was immediately stricken with the pain of nostalgia. In an instant, I was taken back to a time, several years ago, when things were very different from now. I remembered the way I felt back then, who my boyfriend was, who my friends and "friends" were, where I was in life. In truth, I was at the height of popularity. And I never realized just how awful it felt until I heard that song and it all came flooding too fast into my heart to be contained. How lonely being the "It" girl can be. The stab of love lost, of jealousy's arrows piercing my back.

It's one of my favorite songs on the disc, still.
I'm not that naive girl anymore.